Indecision should be harder than making a decision

The title seems perfectly true - however, the inverse is often the reality. It is Sunday, and I need to go to the office and visit a consumer tomorrow. I want to break away, but as I dither, nothing has yet been decided on the October 1 by any party. I said I would reconsider, and I did. I really want to move out of the project that funds my part-time position. I would have no problem with being a part of this non-profit, although I know that there is probably no funding source for anything else.

Ah, guilt shows up on occasion, too. Co-workers would have to take up the slack, and consumers I have would have to be reassigned to others. Would I be running out on co-workers irresponsibly? Naturally, it is a selfish move, but is that bad?? What about me, should I be preeminent in my moves, or accede to other people and entities? 

Do I hit the ball hard and miss the hole, or hit it softly and not make it? Likewise, should I stay (the easier course) or move on (fraught with some peril)? Photo by Cam  

I need to contact the one who (sort of) rejected my resignation - and we have to make decisions. I need to make the first move, as I do not want to keep hanging on without making a decision on my future...

What to do...continued

I was hoping to not work with the resignation for the rest of the weekend, but...I was looking at the compensation I feel I am owed. And looking closely at the employer's policies and procedures manual online. I had originally intended to look at chapter and verse of the issues such as unused and accrued vacation time, bonuses (as I received last year), etc.


I started to read further though. It seems that many procedures weren't followed to the letter on the company end, such as performance reviews. I know that we have to provide services with substantially less funding and thus a lesser staff and there are only 24 hours (max) per day, and things have to move fast. But there are administrative things that we all have to adhere to...


It was an eye-opener to become familiar with the policies that all have to adhere to...I like the organization, and the people - procedure must be followed, and I feel that it really hasn't. So I am torn about the idea of staying vs. leaving - and the easiest course would be if the job were defunded, leaving the decision for someone else. The easy course of action is for someone else to make the move for me - probably not the actual case, I am afraid...